Awaiting Ian or Alyssa Taylor!

Who is Ian and Alyssa? Well when my husband (John) and I are blessed with a baby girl, she will be Alyssa Mackenzie Taylor. If we have a Son, he will be Ian Alexander Taylor. I started with the Fertility Specialist last year. I try to share via phone with my loved ones, but the sad, mundane times when I don't feel optimistic about this journey...I usually keep to myself, so this is my way to share with everyone. Feel free to comment, add photos, or just say a prayer for us!

Monday, March 19, 2007

UGH!

Well, to make a long story short.... Today is March 19, 2007. I have said before that I have left it in God's hands...but, you know me and how impatient I can be!! I found out that I was pregnant on March 10, 2007 and went to the Doctor on March 12, 2007 for confirmation bloodwork. My HCG was 380, (50+ is a good pregnancy)but,I had started bleeding. I had my HCG re-tested in two (2) hours and it had fallen to 157. They said I was in the process of having a "spontaneous abortion"....how insensitive can you be!! It never gets easier. On March 13, I went to have a D and C to finalize matters. Working at Scan has increasing become difficult due to the numerous losses John and I have suffered. I see so many clients that take for granted the wonderful gift of a child. Why doesn't God give us this wonderful GIFT!! .... Sleep my angel, sleep. I will meet you and the other angels that we have lost one day and I will Cherish you all in Heaven.