Awaiting Ian or Alyssa Taylor!

Who is Ian and Alyssa? Well when my husband (John) and I are blessed with a baby girl, she will be Alyssa Mackenzie Taylor. If we have a Son, he will be Ian Alexander Taylor. I started with the Fertility Specialist last year. I try to share via phone with my loved ones, but the sad, mundane times when I don't feel optimistic about this journey...I usually keep to myself, so this is my way to share with everyone. Feel free to comment, add photos, or just say a prayer for us!

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

YOU WERE GROWING

Well, I just wanted to update everyone.....I took the home pregnancy test this morning at 11:37 a.m. and it was positive. I then called Dr. Bopp and he wanted me to come in right away to test the HCG and Progesterone level, I went in and my HCG level was 587. They want me to come in and take another test in 2 days to see if the level is rising like it is suppose to. I have the best Doctor in Fort Wayne who specializes in High Risk pregnancies.... I have Faith that God will cradle this baby until he lays him/her in my arms, and Forever ever after! Please keep us in your prayers. I went to the doctor 2 days later and my HCG has dropped to 319, the Doc says it's not a good sign...come back in two days to see if the level is still dropping. I went in 2 days later and my level has dropped to 187. The Doc says there is no chance of survival...I pleaded to DO SOMETHING..... PLEASE DON'T LET ME LOSE THIS BABY!! Doc says, "there is no chance, you just have to wait to have a spontaneous abortion." Well God knows I am familiar with that.... Well, 4 days later and I have officially lost the baby... Sleep my angel, sleep. I will meet you and the other angels that we have lost one day and I will Cherish you all in Heaven.